Spring break was a really timely one, got to spend some time with mom and dad, and went down to Emma's for the weekend. For the first time in my life, I did things that I never have done before.. ride a horse, pick fresh vegetables from the garden, feed the chickens and all sorts of things. Was living the country life for a couple of days!
I was just telling the girls that I can so imagine bringing up kids in such an environment that is absolutely suited for a family life, and you get to spend so much time with the kids and nurture them, but at the same time, I thought to myself, am I too much of a "city-girl" to go country? I don't know.. I like my high heels and my dress ups, as much as they seem superficial, they're a part of what makes me me. I reckon you can never take the city out of me.. Don't get me wrong, I like the country life, its pace and its serenity, but I suppose, it's a luxury to live like that, in the sense that.. luxuries only come once in awhile. I still miss the fast paced life we have in Singapore, I miss the crowds, the noise, the efficiency, the strive to be the best and of course the shopping, the bustling city.. then again, I'm the atypical city kid, no clubs, no drinks, no partying, but I have my own version of fun. =)
Well.. Apart from that, I met a few of Emma's relatives and what one of them said brought tears to my eyes... She said, one thing she remembers her mom telling her as a young girl was that, "life is like a corridor, when one door shuts, another opens. Never look back."
Never look back, never regret, never go.. "what if..", because "what if.." will never happen again. It's to embrace what we have in our open doors and make the best of it, so when it shuts in future, we know we don't have to look back and say.. "I wish I had...". Right now, I'm standing at my open door and telling myself to make the most of it, to do my very best. I may not be the best student nor the brightest, but I yearn to be a dentist that is a 100%. One that gives her 110% to her patients, who tries her best at getting 100% of the things right, as much as I can never be perfect scoring, I know I'm doing my best for my patients, I'm giving my best to the Lord and making the most of this immense gift he has given to me.
It was a good reminder to set my priorities straight again. It's hard, it's really hard, cause I don't deny that this time round, it's seems so hard to shut my feelings down and to ditch it, cause there's a voice within that says, "not just yet". It's weird cause my brain rules my heart, but yet this time, it's that tad difficult. Whatever the case, I'm not intending to deal with it, what ever will be, will be, in God's time. For now, I'm loving the open door and the people in it that I'm standing with.
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