At 26, I can't say I'm old enough, but I'm not young either. I've made my fair share of mistakes and experiences, although not as vast as when I'm 50, but i think I've been through enough to want to give myself some advise, or rather, I wish I could teleport and tell myself these things when I was 15. So here's a letter from myself NOW, to me Then!
Dear Me,
Hello. Welcome to 15 years of life, it's me, from the future (cheesy, I know), but you'll get to realise and love how cheesy you can be in future. But anyway, 11 years on, I wish there were a few things someone told me that would have saved me a lot of trouble, so here I am, giving you a bit of insight to what you should know.
Truth about you
First of all, you have to come to terms with the fact that you will never be a popular kid in school, or ever for that matter, so don't try to be someone else you aren't to FIT in, cause you'd be better off finding your identity by being you and standing out. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.
People won't like you for being polite and respectful to authority, but that's ok! Get used to being called "teacher's pet", "suck up", cause at the end of the day, the older generation will appreciate and love that quality in you, and you honestly won't have a problem getting older people on your side. (Just a peek into the future... being geriatric friendly will be in your favour!)
Secondly, YOU are a nerd, embrace it! You are also quite goofy, lame, cheesy, and not really the feminist you think of yourself to be now! yes, you don't need a man in your life, but you'll come to realise, life is sort of more fun with them around, especially when you've found the right one (now.. don't get too ahead of yourself, relationships are your thing, but we'll talk about that later).
Thirdly, don't second guess yourself. Don't question whether or not you can, just do it. Don't ask yourself if you're good enough, just go for it. If you have a passion in life and you want it, you'll chase for it, and chances are, you'll achieve it. You'll realize after the end of secondary school that if you put your head into something, you'd get it. Then again, please don't neglect your studies just because of Choir. (You probably will anyway. Oh well)
Fourthly, You have found God, or rather, God has found you. Truth is, He has already picked you from the beginning, why else would you be sent to a Christian school since you were 4? You will struggle with mom to go to church, you will find it hard to break away from what you have been brought up with, but stay strong, because it is your Faith that will bring you over the many tides, it is the love of God that will show you how much you are loved, find your identity in Him, in His perfect image of you. Don't doubt yourself, everyone else will tell you otherwise, they may bring you down, but find love, solace and comfort in His love for you. You'll realise, that's all you really need. =) everything else He gives you is out of grace and love.
Dreams
Dare to dream, be even more bold to achieve. Dare to take a leap, be even more courageous to pursue. Dare to believe, be brave to failure. You WILL find it hard to live your dream. Everyone may tell you, you can't do it, do something else... Do this, do that, you're good at this, you're good at that. But know where YOUR passion lies, know where God wants to take you and chase it. Because He has given you a desire so strong, you know He will take you across, He will make a way for you, so long as you trust in Him and persevere. You'll realise the most rewarding thing about your passion, is being able to share someone's life, is being able to give them something better, it is even more rewarding waking up, loving everyday, because it's never work when you love.
Grow in Christ, grow in His likeness and learn to love like He does. You'll realise in time to come that there are a lot of people out there who has never experienced His love, so do what you can to love them like He has loved you!
Family
Know what everyone's time on earth is finite. We all of a due by date, so treasure everyone you have around you. Especially gran, she's not as strong as she seems. Love them thinking that it would be their last every single day. Cause like me, you'll regret not loving them that little bit more!
Love mom and dad, you'll realise that they've put in a lot of effort to provide for you and give you the best, so be filial and be loving, be patient and forbearing. You'll realise you'll have a lot more people in your life whom you'll relate to as family, remember they are all people you will love, so let them know outwardly that you love them and care for them!
Relationships
Now.. I know you want to know who you'll be with and marry, but I don't know either. Or rather, I'm not married yet, but I have quite a clear idea of who I want to be married to. =) So yes.. Brings me to my point, don't break hearts. If I can turn back time, I'd have left relationships alone until I was more or less ready to commit.
Know that relationships take alot of work, time and effort. It doesn't happen magically like you think it would. Yes, it's easy to fall in love and be attracted to someone but maintaining a relationship takes effort, commitment, patience and forbearance. You will think that it should come easy, but it honestly doesn't. So don't break your heart and someone's heart because you're just in for fun when they aren't.
Also, you know you like good boys that look bad, so don't even try dating the "ideal" boy that mom wants you to date. He'll turn out to be your worse nightmare and honestly, a dickhead. So.. Just wait on that one special person who knows how to piece your broken heart together. He'll be everything you imagined you want to date but didn't think you were good enough for. And PROMISE, he's someone who can and will carry you (literally and figuratively) when you need him to.
So to my 15 year old me, enjoy life and enjoy God's providence of friends.. Cause you Will meet some friends in time to come who will bless your life so immensely, friends you know will be forever.
God Bless!
From,
Me
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