One and a half years later..

Where do I begin? From the first day I realised I wanted to be a dentist or the first day I knew I got into it. One and a half years in and everyday, I wake up to a miracle. Everyday, I'm thankful and blessed that I'm in dental school. I reckon that was why God put me through NUS, He put me through three years of want and honestly, my last year in NUS was just filled with desperation.

That's probably what they mean when they say "it's through the valleys that you grow" and it was in my toughest moments that I heard God, when I was in sheer desperation that I was scourging to hear just a whisper or anything remotely close to an answer and when I did, He gave me a message so clear, a voice so loud and a desire so tangible, He turned my dreams into reality, into fierce passion.

It pains my heart when I see my classmates drop out from dental school, even if it's only a short term that I've gotten to know them, the sheer fact that we were going through dental school together bonds us. It's not a joke when people say that dentistry is probably the toughest and most demanding course in uni. It is. After one and a half years, I can say it is and it will only get tougher.

Some days are hard, you get beaten down and feel disappointed. You get demoralized and wonder just whether or not you'll get through. I know for awhile I lost that desire, for a moment, I took my eyes off. I took my eyes off Jesus, I looked at MY achievements and what I could do. I focused on MY grades and MY abilities. I know this semester has started off on the right foot. I know I can't rely on my strengths, for I have none, I can't rely on my abilities, for I am weak. But with God, I have possibilities, I have strength, for HE empowers me.

I cannot express just how Thankful I am, how blessed I feel. I may not be the smartest dental student, but I'm striving for dedicated excellence to serve God and His people.

Dentistry aside, I am content. Sherwin has been such a pillar of support, encouragement and love. It's a heartwarming feeling to know that there's someone who understands me, my passions and knows exactly what to say when I'm feeling demoralized and down. Not to mention, he warms not just my heart but my gut too! =) I see God working in his life and grace just pouring so abundantly that I'm blessed by it too. Tho I don't really know how this will pen out in the future, I know God's will will be sovereign in this. What will happen in a couple of years when he needs to leave to pursue his dreams? I honestly don't know and perhaps it's too soon to tell.. but the only thing I can be certain of is that I'd be more than glad that he'll be able to pursue his passions, with or without me. Because after all my experiences in life, all I can say is that there is no greater joy and satisfaction than doing what you've been called to do. I can testify to that, one and a half years in..