What's becoming of kids today!

Life is so so amusing. Was doing some Christmas shopping today and I was so taken aback by how absurdly rude kids can be.. seriously.. I don't mean teenagers.. I mean KIDS. Those brats that i saw were probably not anywhere near 10!

We were in the queue, and might I add, a long one, while those two brats were behind me. I admit.. I did buy quite a number of things and was asking for home delivery (you don't expect me to lug my purchases while i do my shopping, do you?) so it probably took that tad longer than usual. But honestly, Not once have I complained when I'm in a queue. My Logic's this.. DON'T Queue. If you think it's too long, skip it, shop awhile more before heading for the checkout.

Anyway.. Back to it, those two brats were complaining, in their all so broken english, or should I say, Singlish, in that irritating shrieky childish voice (yes.. I'm pissed) "why the queue so long ar?", "how come must wait so long ar?".. or whatever they were trying to express.

The funny thing is.. they were a pair of siblings and the girl.. trying to do that stare and roll eyes thing kept trying to look at me.. and she being at a 10 year old height, looked absolutely ridiculous from where i was standing. She picked the wrong person to stare at. If you wanna roll your eyes, please do it in the person's face and not the abdomen, it's just insanely stupid. So they went on venting until it got on my nerves, I stared down at her, and said.. "Kids should just stop complaining" and did the perfect eye roll. I didn't mean to be mean, but can you blame me?

Anyway.. Point is.. If you have a kid, or in future, will have a kid.. please teach them some manners, along with all the potty training and speech. It's annoying to have a kid complaining, speaking with bad english makes it worse. and seriously.. What's becoming of kids today!

December

December.. I always have mixed feelings about December. It's the last month of the year yet in it holds a very important day that I love to celebrate. Not just for the gifts, shopping and whole festive mood, but for the very reason that, Christmas is a celebration of the birth of Christ. It's a time of renewal and reflection.. and it is this very reflection that I have quite a love hate relationship with.

At the end of the 12 months of the year, you reflect and think about all that you've done and accomplished all year, all the people you've reached out to and the others that you help. You think of all the snide remarks that you have made and the demeaning stares that you give. Yet you think of the number of people whom you have touched and gave a smile to. Where does the scale tip towards to?

Can surviving yet another grueling year of uni be considered an accomplishment? Or maybe having to do and juggle so many things all at once? Are these accomplishments?

When you challenge yourself at something and overcome it, momentarily, you're satisfied and happy, but when you look back at the whole 365 days, that one little moment would seem so insignificant. Can you have fruitful moments but a not so fruitful year?

I wonder how many people feel the way I feel about December.. the Optimism of a new year ahead and the pessimism that one hasn't accomplished much for the past year.

This is a feeling, that is so hard to fathom.

SICKO

Micheal Moore. SICKO. Great Show. Period.



Yes. I can't find anything close to describing Sicko. No doubt that the show is in some sense biased with Micheal Moore's voice and displeasure raised throughout the show. BUT even when i watched it with that bit of skepticism, it got to me. Especially when he brought the "heros" of 9/11 to CUBA.. LISTEN.. CUBA (a place where US thought of as enemy), for free professional medical treatment, something that they were deprived of back at home. Either that, or the price for medicine in the US was just exorbitant. Why "heros" you may ask, cause they were volunteers that helped out at the 9/11 site and were not under the governments payroll.. and that's why.. THEY are NOT the governments' responsibility and cannot benefit from the fund that was set aside for the REAL HEROS. and may i add, The PAYED REAL HEROS that the government is RESPONSIBLE for.



You seriously got to catch it. I know many would be turned off by watching a documentary, but one can definitely learn a lot from it. Well.. I had this moment in the show where it just struck me.. what the hell am i here for? Life is so fragile, yet the society can be so unfeeling, turning its back on those who have fallen through the cracks or those unfortunate enough to be plagued with diseases. Have we adopted the mentality of, "it's not my problem?", "it's his folly for not saving enough for old age." or "I can't share because I don't have enough".

Watching how other countries accepted those ill Americans with open arms and gave them free treatment just hit me.. have we rejected someone who needed help? Did we say no to helping someone just because they are of a different race, a different nationality or because he speaks funny?

It is hard, extremely hard to be selfless and I don't think i can claim that i can achieve that, but can we be not selfish? Cause in my opinion, the opposite of being selfish isn't being selfless, but it's sharing, giving without expecting. I'm still pondering over the question.. What's our main purpose of being alive? To waste resources and destroy the earth further? Or to be a blessing.. in the any way, even as small as it may be, it may mean the world to someone else.

Follow Your Heart

"Follow your heart".. Is that sound advise? What if the heart wants to take a path that seems too hard to reach or one that doesn't seem to exist, no matter how long and how hard you try to find it? What if the heart is rash and wants to take a plunge into the deepest waters, can we afford that fall? When the heart yearns for the sky, when you miss it, can you really catch onto a star, or will you fall into a void?

So when someone tells you to "follow you heart", can you actually JUST DO IT? or do you have to process your heart with your head? Put thought into that feeling, put practicality into dreams and find ground when you're afloat?

I found my answers. "Follow your heart" only when your Heart is placed in the hands of the Lord. Only then, do you follow your heart, because He speaks to it.

Follow your heart

Life will take me,

where ever You want me to go.

My heart will find its place,

and You, will plan my steps and my pace.

You are in control,

of my life and eternity.

You decide where i should go,

what i should do.

Only in Your plans, I trust,

and in Your will that, my heart, I will follow.

In Your palms I place my heart,

Cause it's only You that I trust.

With you.. I can Follow my heart.

-Jocelyn

That's When I Love you

This week has been CRAZY! There's just so SO much to do!

I'm listening to this song.. That's when I love you by Aslyn.. and it's so sweet! =) I told my bro to use it, somehow, for his wedding, if not, I'd use it for mine in future! (when i actually get to that stage!)

Anyway, here's the lyrics..

When you have to look away

When you don't have much to say

That's when I love you

I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak

Or see you walk with two left feet

Thats when I love you

I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game

Forget Im waiting in the rain

Baby i love you,

I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count "on" me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn,

The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes

Cause the movie it made you cry

Thats when I love you

I love you a little more each time

And when you cant quite match your clothes

Or when you laugh at your own jokes

Thats when I love you

I love you, more than you'll know

And when you forget that we had a date

Or that look that you get when you show up late

Baby I love you,

I love you anyway

Heres my promise made tonight

You can count "on" me for life

Thats when i love you

When nothing you do can change my mind

The more I learn,

The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

When I love you no matter what

Thats when I love you

When nothing baby

Nothing you do could change my mind

The more I learn,

The more I love

The more my heart cant get enough

Thats when I love you,

When I love you no matter what

No matter what

My F1 Fever!

I LOVED LOVED LOVED F1!!! The race was just exhilarating! I caught the qualifying at DXO, there was a Castello party at the patio. Just to digress.. The Italian imported beers, wines and liqueur were FantaBUlous! So.. back to F1.. Some friends were really skeptical about F1, cause they didn't see the point of watching cars drive past you 61 times, but honestly, when you're right there in the middle of all the action.. you can't help but be drawn in by the sweet sweet sound of the engine.

Castello Party invite

The Ferrari driving by

Here's a video i took at the race as well.. not exceptionally clear.. but.. I LOVE!
They had laser light displays on the top of the Ritz.. Something along the lines of First F1 night race. Thank you for being part of history.. I don't know if you can see if from this video.. either way.. enjoy!

On top of that, the fabulous folks at Da Paolo's came up with the Ferrari cupcakes!!! I couldn't help but buy them! They're adorable eh!!! LOVE IT!

The Time to say I Do

He said "I do"..
She said "I do"..
They signed the marriage certificate
and were pronounced "Husband and Wife"



They made a vow, to share their lives together,
To hold true to each other, till forever.
This promise they sealed with a kiss,
and glowed with such immense Bliss.

To the Happy couple, Jason and Jermaine,
My brother and my new found Sister.
I give them my blessings.












That's what September is all about.. My brother's solemnisation, held in House @ Dempsey, coincidentally on the 15th of the lunar month, on the mooncake festival. The place was beautifully done up by the talented guys, Justin and Leroy from Fleurlicious and photos were taken by the artistic folks from Avenue 8, Kelvin and Liwei! Thanks to you guys, the day was PERFECT!



The couple looked perfect and so beautiful together, they were a perfect match, one made in heaven. I couldn't ask for anything more, I doubt any one could, cause it was flawless.

During the solemnisation, I was thinking to myself..
How nice it would be to share a life with someone I love,
and to know that even if I grow old and bored of life,
I'm happy because I'm sharing it with this one special person that completes me.
To have a someone I can pace my heart to,
one who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
Someone to begin and end each day with..
Whose warmth can engulf me and keep me safe,
and in his arms, find solace and peace.
I suppose, that's only when I say "I do".

My New Swing

People ask me.. Why of all things, this? And honestly, all I can think of is, Why not? The exhilaration derived from each shot is a whole new one with every swing taken.

What I love about this game?

The fresh air, the flow, movements and the challenge. I love the concentration involved, the technique of the game and what i love most is the immense satisfaction you can derive from just one good shot. Many who don't play would probably not understand and often call it either the "old man's game" or the "rich man's game".. seriously, you're so so very mistaken!

One good shot is akin to having a decadent piece of rich chocolate fudge cake, just without the calories and the sin! You feel your muscles pull and flex, you take your back swing, and at the highest point of your strength and momentum, you release it all. At that point of contact, you hear it, you feel it, it's when you're one with the club.. That sweet sweet sound and that satisfaction that overwhelms you.. You hit the sweet spot.. and there you have it.. "pung".. The small white ball flies to where ever you send it to. You finish and stand tall with a sense of pride and joy.

Just imagine, all that in just one shot. How amazing a game it is!

My New Swing. It's a right hand swing as opposed to my old left hand one. This one's much easier to master and perform each and every time. I love it!!!! All these, Thanks to Paul Tudor, my golf pro at the Orchid Country Club!

You're probably bored by all the technical things, oh well.. if you ever have the chance, go pick golf up and you tell me if you love it as much!

The Food Post

I'm gonna skip the intro to this post.. the title kinda says it all. I met up with my darlings this week, apart from the retail therapy and great company, I must say, it was quite a gastronomic experience!


First Up.. Wednesday's outing at the Prive Restaraunt, Bar Bistro, Cafe @ Marina at Keppel Bay, on Keppel Island. Elaine and I headed to Prive Cafe for a not so early brunch which later turned into lunch.



We didn't have desserts as appetisers on purpose, just that we wanted to wait till 12 before placing our order for lunch (cause that's only when lunch is served). Anyway, there were NO REGRETS having desserts first because they were simply decadent, so much so that it would be a cardinal sin NOT to have them..

Introducing the Praline Hazelnut cake..

This beautifully presented cake has a top layer of chocolate with praline that melts in your mouth instantly, with the perfect match of a layer of crunchy crisps that line the base. The textured sensation of this pleasurably sweet slice will send you craving for more!

The Chocolate Peanut Butter Cake

This rich chocolate cake mixed with a thick layer of mildly salty peanut butter paste is a refreshing new gastronomic experience. It isn't your typical sickly sweet chocolate cake, but one that you can't stop having. Imagine a thick creamy layer of dark chocolate fudge poured over chocolate cake with a layer of rich peanut butter paste sandwiched right in the middle for maximum palate satisfaction! This highly addictive combination will leave you asking for more!

Irish Cream Milkshake

Many will agree with me that some milkshakes leave you feeling disgusted, sinful and exceptionally bloated.. But this wonderful creation, both in taste and in form, will change your take on milkshakes. First sip of this creamy milkshake will hit you with a little help from the slightly alcoholic Irish cream, then sooths your palate with the rich chocolate syrup and ultimately leaves your gut feeling happy and satisfied. It's the kind of milkshake that you can finish all alone and not feel selfish that you have not shared. If you're looking for a substitute for your "chicken soup for the soul".. Trust me.. This is just IT!

Dinner at Marche

I suppose it's not surprising that many of you have had the Marche Experience. Marche has indeed re-invented eating and dining, though I still do not understand why people would pay the price they do at Marche, but I must say, they do serve decent food. I won't call it exquisite or above average, but in some way, it's decently delectable.

What's on the menu.. Wild Mushroom Soup with loads of Croutons. Cesar Salad, Mixed salad, Rosti with Garlic Pork Sausage and for dessert.. German Apple Pie, Chocolate Mousse and Bailey's Cream and Loads of Great company from Elaine and Emiko.

What's worth mentioning is the Rosti with Garlic Pork sausage topped with a dollop of sour cream.. This is Fantastic! Potato shreds pan fried till crispy on both sides, having the best of both worlds of "french fries" (the fried sides) with baked potato (the potatoes in the centre), really, can it get any better?! The sour cream just brings this dish to an extra ordinary level! Love it!

Alright.. Then came Friday Breakfast with darling Liru at Dome @ Dempsey..

We ordered the same thing for breakfast, what can i say, great minds think alike.

Presenting Dome's.. The Big Breakfast!

This sumptuous breakfast comes with two eggs, either sunny side up or scrambled, two chicken chipolata sausages, Pan fried Back Bacon, Fresh Mushroom Buttons, a Hashbrown, half an oven grilled tomato and two slices of whole grain bread with condiments. (Quite a mouthful huh!) I honestly wonder, why would anyone do Macdonald's when there is a true Big Breakfast at Dome! Honestly, if you run out of places to have breakfast, Dome is a place where you'll never, NEVER get bored!

Not to mention, the decor in Dome is just so cosy and in its own unique way, old school! You'd love it! Well.. I DID! (P.S. That's my supposedly "new" haircut I had the day before I went for breakfast! I so SO regret the CUT!!!!)

Well.. That's all for now.. More good food coming your way!

Quality, Taste and Style

I am totally in Love with this new book!

Tim Gunn's, A Guide to Quality, Taste and Style. Alright.. If you have no idea who Tim Gunn is, please do yourself a favour and go find out.

You know how books that start with "A guide" turn out to be some boring, self help book that honestly doesn't ever give you a light bulb moment. BUT this book.. Is leagues ahead of the rest. His writing is impeccable, his book, beautifully crafted, and he is, without a doubt, one of THE best fashion educators!

Anyway.. There were two quotes that I so absolutely adored when i read this book..

First would be.. "Fashion you can buy, Style you must possess."

and the other by Oscar Wilde. (If you don't know who this is, go ahead.. Kill yourself)

"It's only shallow people who DO NOT judge by appearances. True mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible."

I left that as my MSN nick, and a friend of mine had a "discussion" about it with me, That people who judge are deeper in thought and that there are exceptions. I was so close to saying.. Dude.. Nothing is absolute man! but anyway.. Don't take that quote out of context and read.. For goodness sake.. READ the whole sentence!

But then again, i believe my darlings who read my posts have a certain level of understanding and beyond reasonable doubt, have decent linguistic abilities.

Another example would be when I wrote.. "Work is for people who don't play golf" and i got tonnes of questions about why people who golf don't have to work. Seriously, Brains were made for a purpose.. like seriously, think and work those cerebral juices before asking a question!

Anyway.. Tim Gunn's book is a triple MUST READ, whether or not you need a guide to Quality, Taste and Style!

Wedding Vows

I had wanted to do a post bout my HK trip, but the photo editing is taking longer than I expected. Anyway, was reading a couple of wedding vows the other day, i think they were written by this particular guy who's going to be holding the ceremony, don't know if he's a JP though. But, that's not the point, point is, he sent a couple of standard vows that a lot of the couples used and believe you me, its an utter mess.

Yes, it's in decent English, not broken.. but a wedding vow is one that you're going to, erm, hopefully, in most cases, take once in your lifetime, so the last thing you should do is to read something that has no soul and is not at all sincere.

I can't remember them word for word.. I know the shortest was something to the effect of..

"With constant faith and everlasting love (or something along those lines) ... ... With this ring, i marry you."

My instant reaction.. "you can't be kidding me! someone actually used this!?!"

The second vow was quite bad, you can imagine, my mind's physically blocking this memory!

and the third.. well.. it's quite, how do you put it.. raw? unpolished? there but not there? again, I can't really remember the whole damn thing, it's pretty long, but it was something like..

" In sickness, I will nurse you back to health,
In health, i will nurture you.
In sadness, I will ... (i can't remember)
In happiness, I will ... ( i can't remember too, just fill it in with a word that sounds odd and that should be it)
In poverty, our love not grow poor
In wealth, our love will.. (grow?)
(i can't remember the other two lines)
With this ring, I marry you."


What I seriously don't like about them?
The last part.. "with this ring, I marry you." can't they have something like "With this ring, I wed thee." or maybe something mushy-er, "with this ring, I bind my mind, soul and body to our love for eternity." ok.. if you're having the eeekkkss, trust me, i am too.

there was a conversation that was i think most brides and grooms might have, it's usually about the length of the vow..

Bride: "I like the last one, it's longer, so if you want, maybe we can do one line each?"
Groom:" vows should be short and sweet, shorter the better, the first one la! or maybe, Just the last part, 'with this ring I wed thee."
Me: "You don't have to do the same vows, and if she likes, I think you can do something like a Poem that's short and sweet."

At the point when i said poem, I tell you, he was so about to murder me, but I was just being honest! Anyway, she asked me what i would say.. I thought for quite a while, looked at her and went, "I'm not exactly in any lovey dovey stage of my life to think of something sweet to promise someone i'd be there for the rest of my life. Sorry!" I was just being honest..

So I took the last vow the guy sent.. and changed it to this.. (if you're wondering why the sad part comes first, i think it signifies like the bad times before the good, I'd still love you?)

"In sickness, your pain I'll bear,
In health, your joy I'll share.
In sadness, your tears I'd catch
..."

Can't exactly remember the tacky lines. Anyway, I was telling my mom how bad the samples were and we came up with something quite funny, entitled, I will Love you.

I Will Love You

I will Love you..
till you're old and grey,
even when all your teeth decay.
Whether you're walking with a stick
or with an island on your head,
I will love you.

I will Love you,
till our memory fails
and even when you're ill.
Whether you need to be cleaned or fed,
I promise, I won't complain a tad.

I will Love you,
my heart will hold true
and never turn blue.
I Will Love You,
This I promise You."


Ok, Not your typical "vow", but it's true right?! how bout this one..

"I cannot promise I'd be the perfect wife,
the one that cleans, cooks and does everything nice.

I cannot promise that I'd never have a temper,
or give you a shoulder cold as winter.

I cannot promise you a life that's all rosy and pretty,
cause I can't guarantee that I won't be petty.

But What I can promise you, is my love,
My being and my devotion.

What I can promise, is to be the wife
who would stay up by your side when you're ill,
and hold you till you've lost that chill.

I promise, that no matter how tough life is,
I'd be right beside you, fighting it with you.

All these and more, I promise you.
And with this ring,
I bind all my promises and all my love to you, for eternity."


very mushy. but to be honest, I think something short and sweet would be nice, I suggested this to the groom..

"I will Love you all my life,
And with this ring, I wed you to be my lovely wife"

So much for vows.. Well, all i believe is that a vow would only be one that holds true with actions and with effort, a vow bound by love, said from the heart, is a very beautiful vow, no matter how long or how short.

Long Live Love!

My Love will Get You Home

I'm falling in Love with this song.. My Love Will Get You Home.

Here's the lyrics,

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.


If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.


If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.


If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.

-Christine Glass


Beautiful lyrics? Doesn't it sum up what love is all about? That no matter how bad a day was, how horribly life is treating you, no matter how lost you are, how torn you are inside, Love can take you home. To a place where you will feel secure, where you need no directions nor the slightest beam of light, because there is Love so great that it overcomes all.

I believe each of us has a story that encompasses such a love and one day, just one day, I'd tell someone.. My Love will get you home..

Heavy Cross

I fell in love with this little poem i got in an email. enjoy!

Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
there will always be sunshine,
after the rain ....

Perhaps you may stumble,
perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready,
To answer your call ...

He knows every heartache,
sees every tear,
A word from His lips,
can calm every fear ...

Your sorrows may linger,
throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish,
in dawn's early light ...

The Savior is waiting,
somewhere above,
To give you His grace,
and send you His love...

Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows ...
after the rain ... "

The truth about love, My love,

It's 4 in the morning and I'm sitting on my bed thinking of what to type. No, I'm not typing out of boredom, but it's more of, there's so much going through my mind that I can barely pick what to type. If you're wondering, no, I'm not suffering from insomnia, I just can't get to sleep when my brain's processing thoughts.

I was out this evening, caught a movie. Well.. No prizes for guessing it right.. Sex and the City.
To be honest, I enjoyed the movie tremendously, there were moments that tickled me silly, scenes that warmed my heart and others just brought tears to my eyes.

Why I enjoyed the flick? Believe me, it's not for the reasons that you have going through your mind. No. It wasn't the stark butts, hot bods or the "bedroom" or if you wish, the other part of the house scenes that made the show so thought provoking. And neither was it the fabulous bags, amazing heels and couture fashion.

What I enjoyed most about it was that there were parts of the movie that I believe many can relate to, and truth to be told, I could relate to them too. Especially one part of the movie where Sarah Jessica Parker narrated, after the big break up, that she was afraid that she'd never be able to laugh again. All her friend said was that she would, once she saw something that would make her laugh again, and she did. (go catch the show if you wanna know what I'm talking about).

I actually did once ask myself that. Would I ever be able to laugh the way I did, would I ever be able to smile without needing to shed a thousand tears or would I ever be able to find love again?

Some of you may think it's silly, but I believe that we, in one way or another, have faced such situations. But on hindsight, when I asked myself these questions then, I asked them with a heart that was so badly broken, with memories so torn and with hope so lost. I asked myself whether I would be able to smile and laugh the same way I did only because I believed that my heart would never heal from a shatter so severe. I thought my heart would never feel the same, would never beat the same way and would probably lose it's pace, cause the person it paced itself to, had left it broken and in pain.

Just as how SJP had friends to be with her every part of the way, I had mine. My team of friends who were there to catch me each time I couldn't move on and fell backward. I had my group of friends who stood by me and filled every lonely day, every missing moment. It was then that i realised that these are the people who'd be there to love you just the way you are, no matter what, no matter when. These are the people who'd mend your broken heart by giving you their love. These are the people who'd hold on to your heart, protect it and tell you that you deserved better. They'd do all the scolding, all the cursing and feel all the indigence for you, simply cause they care.

It is this share of love that is so often forgotten, so often neglected when we become oblivious and conceited. I know that was how my broken heart was healed, not by finding a substitute nor other means, but it was by looking at all that i had, all that I have been blessed with and seeing the tremendous love in all that, in all that I already had. We don't have to seek love elsewhere, because life around you is filled with it, you just have to stop, see and listen and you'll realise that love is indeed all around.

Don't worry, I'm not bringing this up cause I'm all missing and yearning, but I'm bringing this up because I have come to terms, quite a long long time ago, that I am glad to have lost that love I've lost and to have my heart broken to bits. Cause it was because of that, that i found genuine love that would never waver, love that mended my heart and made it stronger than it was.

I now laugh with joy that I never had then, I now go about with life full of the love that I know can never be lost and is mine to keep. Now you know why I loved the flick so much? Ask me if I'm skeptical of a fairytale ending? Let me tell you, I believe all of us have one, it's just for us to find, to keep and to work towards to. True love and happy endings don't come effortless, they require commitment, faithfulness, perseverance, tolerance and graciousness. Most importantly, for me, it requires the child like faith in God and in making Him the center of your life. In that way, a happy ending is not too far from reach.

Just as long as we live, not in search for love that could be lost, but in appreciation of the love that has already been given. And the love, given from that one special person, would take you down the road of that very happy ending.

I wish you all the love that you deserve and to those girls that I mentioned above, you girls know who you are and to all of you, thank you for your unfaltering love, I hereby pledge you mine. Cheers to us! Love ya!

Never Give Up!

Home is where the heart is and my heart seems to be in two different places now. I miss my home here and I so miss Hong Kong *iwannagohome! Well.. The only good thing now, is that I'm so near town that shopping's made convenient, down side of it, I'm falling off the wagon, the shopaholic nature of mine seems to be taking over. (ok. I know. what's new right? but you can stop rolling your eyes NOW.)


Anyway, that's not the most important thing, or rather, the most interesting thing i'd like to share about. Have you ever been to church and sat through sermons and can't really relate to them? Somehow, Sunday's message spoke to me in such a great way that i can barely describe. Truth to be told, I learn some thing new every Sunday after church and I often take home a message with me. But Sunday's message was one that struck a chord in my heart, I couldn't help but wanna cry when the service was over.

What's the message about?


Well, first, ask yourself this..


When you face the hardest battle in Life, What do you do?

Pastor Lee's message was from Joshua 11: 1-23. He gave us three simple, but empowering points to hold on to when faced with such a situation..


1. Hold fast to the word of God.

• because fear robs us of our faith and perspective, joy and strength of God
  
• The keyword to note in Joshua 11: 6 "but the Lord said to Joshua, 'Do not be afraid because of them, for tomorrow about this time I will deliver all of them slain before Israel. you shall hamstring their horses and burn their chariots with fire.'"
  

2. Be true and faithful to the will of God

• Believe that this God of mine will see me through and fight for me!


• even if His will may seem to go against normal human analytical logic, believe in His will!


• if you refer to v6, you'd realise that the Lord asked Joshua to "hamstring the horses and burn their chariots with fire. In combat, these things obtained from the enemy could have been very useful and it was against logic to set them up in fire, but Joshua was true and faithful to God's will. Though what He has installed for us may seem illogical, we just have to believe in the Will of God, because HE knows best and HE has His plan for us.
  

3. Press on in the work of God

• The fruit of perseverance and endurance is evidently seen in v23 of Joshua 11. "So Joshua took the whole land, according to all that the Lord had said to Moses; and Joshua gave it as an inheritance to Israel according to their divisions by their tribes. Then the land rested from war."


• Joshua was true and faithful and he did, in the end, reap the fruits of his perseverance and endurance


• Do not look at your confidence but at our Lord, to move on, to persevere, to press on! Don't give up!

I often ask Him, if this is His will for me, one that I know and can hear the calling for, then why am i so near yet so far from it?

It was as if i were back in secondary school, when I asked Him why He chose me and put me in a tough position, to do a seemingly near impossible task. I thought of giving up so many times, but time and time again, whenever i prayed, He told me, "you're not alone in this, I am with you. You are not leading them, I am, and with Me, all things are possible". and He did create a miracle, we got a gold, despite the fact that the week before, we fell to rock bottom, so much so that we couldn't even hold a decent chord together. But He made it possible, all we had to do was just to have faith.

And now, I'm in this same position, and I pray, over and over again and I ask, is this what He wants me to do, and each time, my calling, my desire for this grows even stronger. Some may not believe in the power of prayer or maybe think that it's my subconscious talking to me, but if you just quieten your heart to listen and to pray, you'll hear a clear distinct message, one that's only meant for you.

I am now toiling for 3 years doing something that I do not have much passion for in hope that I'd be able to embark on my passion and my love. I made a promise to Him, that I'd do my best to help those in need, that if financial circumstances permit, i'd give free treatment to those who need help. I know now, more than ever, that this is what my heart yearns and craves for, this is the what my heart hungers for. I am full in the love of my Lord, but I know, this is my calling.

Sunday's message, simple as in may seem, meant a lot to me. It was speaking to me, in a voice so loud that I am convinced, now, more than ever, that all i need to do is hold true and be faithful to His will and all will be done.

If you are facing any trouble, any dilemma or you're in a situation where you're asking "why me? why me Lord?" then I hope this message did speak to you then way it spoke to me. What ever you're embarking on, or about to embark on, Don't Give Up! Have Faith!

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Change

I've had a fantastically busy week, or rather, weeks. Packing, moving and dealing with the renovation, and just when things are starting to settle down a little, i get a real big surprise, not quite the kind that you're thinking of. No, it's not that guy popping out of the box, and neither is it one of the "oh! I've got such a lovely present!", it's actually one that I'm not too eagerly excited about, a surprise that left me speechless (yes, at times i can really be) about the magnitude at which people change.


I am surprised by just how judgmental people can be, how they hastily come to conclusions about things, how self-centered they all are, how microscopic a view they have and just how sinister they can be. OK, fine. Granted, life has never been a bed of roses, neither is it an even playing field, so these things shouldn't be unheard of or even rare. But I just can help but be appalled at how juvenile it has become and for reasons I am too embarrassed to even mention, simply because they are just so so very INSIGNIFICANT. Because there are greater problems in life, in this Country and in this WORLD that we should be concerned about. If only they could see the big picture, they'd realise that life is simply not just all about them. These trivial matters deserve no attention at all, some aren't even directly related to them but why, why the big hooha and reactions? What irks me most is all the double crossing that goes behind it, how kind intentions are made evil by sinister thoughts. I mean, the world isn't the loveliest place, but there are people around who hold true to themselves, who uphold the values and morals of being truthfully tactful and sincerely concerned about others, so don't be snide about their kind intentions neither be cynical about them.

So, you may ask, what happened? Truth to be told, i wish i knew too. Things change, for better or for worse. The same holds true for people as well, just that sometimes, its too fast, too drastic and too much to handle. I've been in too many situations where people double cross, they back-stab and revolve around you with hypocrisy.



It is not the destruction of a relationship, nor the accusations that were hurled, much less the victimization of oneself to gain sympathy that affects me most. What affects me most is how hateful these people can be, the juvenile way they choose to handle these situations and above all that, what disgusts me most, is how blind they have become, how oblivious they have become to what's good for them.



Apart from that, you know what the most amusing part is? The irony in it all, is that these people can get together and make merry and call their relationship sincere. Seriously, it's akin to Stalin and Hitler becoming close friends (if ever they had a chance to). Well, all i can say, is that i simply wish them well and kudos to them, for finding "Simplicity" in complexity.
I'm not trying to make myself sound like the greatest person on earth, i never try to. All i can say, is when I'm nice to a person, I'm sincerely nice, even when the person may have done me wrong. I may be overly politically correct at times, but it's just because i respect you and believe you deserve to be treated with decency. But what i NEVER do, is that I never hate, cause one, It takes too much out of me to hate a person, two, I try to remember the good times and not the bad, and lastly, I forgive. That's why no matter how bad a person has treated me, I can still and will be, at the least, polite and kind towards him or her. It's only when I've totally given up trying, will i be just indifferent towards the person.



Bottom line is, don't hate, don't be hateful, cause there's so much to life that can be celebrated, so much to the world that is beautiful. Next time you pass a cynical comment about someone, think twice.


Devoid yourself of hate because hate voids.



Change
People change, from good to evil,
it's hard to tell, between Angel and Devil.
Angels don't have to appear with feathery wings,
Neither do Devils, as horny, thorny things.
The simplest things can be a Blessing,
But evil thoughts result in their bashing.
The world may change,
Just like the climate and the stock exchange.
Some things we can never be in control of,
But others we can be, with no extra cost.
We can choose to see the darkest days,
or the glimmer of bright shining rays.
No matter what the change,
Remember, try to see the beauty that still remains.
Jocelyn