The knock on my door

I never knew how fast God works until today. It was just the day before that I prayed, and yesterday, just yesterday, He answered.

He started by knocking on a door, one that I was, honestly, quite reluctant to open. Not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't want to lose the feeling and the dependence, but He said to me, "you have to let Me come in and occupy this space, you don't need anything else in here but Me"! The moment I gave up, the moment I stopped struggling against His voice, I felt at peace and at ease. I felt that surge of courage to move on and to let my lil burden go.

It may sound cliche, but I think I found the spring in my step! =) God is Good!

The Beautiful Side of Love

The beautiful side of love. This was a phrase that stuck with me when I flipped through the first few chapters of When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric & Leslie Ludy, I believe it's a book that's going to make my tears roll, simply cause it already did. Somehow, I feel the writers, maybe cause I've been in similar situations and circumstances or maybe cause that's how I'm feeling. But I feel that this is the season.. The season where I give God the pen of my life and let HIM write, not only my life, but my love story and I know, it'd be more than beautiful, more than amazing.

There are times, I don't deny, that I ask God why, why it's taking me so long to find the right one, why those around me just don't seem right. Was it that hard?

But this morning, as I sat down and read the book, it just clicked.. It's taking so long for me to find the "right" one cause I have been looking for what I think was right and not what God thinks is right. That's why no one seems to fit. So right now, I give up searching for the "right" one, and let Him put His right choice in my life. He has everything planned out for me and I'm sure He'd find someone for me.

I'm waiting for His side of love to reveal, it has never been the right season before this, I wasn't ready, not because I wasn't emotionally available, but cause my "right" wasn't HIS right. Now that I know, I'm keeping my heart for that one person God has prepared for me and as much as people think that when you put God in the equation of a relationship, it gets boring, I'd beg to differ. God puts the Love in the relationship, He puts the right hue and tone to it, He'd paint a better picture and logically speaking, HE is the creator of LOVE and if there's someone who know the handbook of love best, it's gotta be HIM!

Right now, I know my heart is at peace and ready for Him to put the Right one in my life, cause the Beautiful side of love.. Is seen through His eyes.

A Special Boy

I just got home on friday, I'm not being figurative here, I really mean HOME! =) I was beaming like a kid when I got off the plane, saw my dad, soaked in the humidity, breathed in the Singapore air, *choked*, fell in love with my room, cried with my mom, hugged my lil boy and love my room even more. Yes. For a moment, I wasn't used to so much space! But that aside.. I want to dedicate this post to a special someone in my life, (no dears.. don't think too much, it's not what you think). But it is, however, about a special boy, someone who means a lot to me, someone I believe God has blessed me with. I know I rarely blog about my friends or people in general, but I do want to share him, as much as I can, with you, because he is such an Angel.



It hasn't been long, I know, barely even ten weeks, not even two months that I know him, but I have made this boy a part of my life, I have given him a special place in my heart. If you need to make a comparison, he's like Brendon, someone I love to bits, only difference is, Brendon's my older brother and him, my little one. And I'm just Blessed to have him in my life.



There's a quote that goes along the lines of "When God made you, He had Angels in mind" and I believe it is so for him. His name is Matthew, my lil brother, my dido.



Here's the hard part.. where or how do I even begin telling you about him?



Well.. Questions would be a good start..

Have you ever met someone for the first time, and instantly knew, that this guy or girl was a keeper, was someone whom you can keep close to your heart?


Have you ever met someone for the first time and knew right there and then, that this was a rare, gentle and shy soul?

Have you ever met someone who could see right through you and read your thoughts without you saying a thing?


Have you met someone who would so generously let you into his life and let you be a part of it?

Have you met someone who puts your safety as a priority and worries about you like family would?


Have you met someone who you know you can trust so implicitly and be so comfortable with that all the world's problems just seem to dissolve away?

Have you met someone who'd love you just the way you are and not asking for anything in return?

Have you met a guy whose soul and spirit is so sincere, so pure and so true that you know God is telling you to take care of him and guide him?

Have you met someone just for a short period of time and know that He is an angel that God has sent into your life?

I have.

That's him, that's Matt.

He's someone I know I can turn to, no matter what the circumstance, someone I know who will be there to walk with me, come what may. He was there with me through the hail storm, as afraid and "freaked" out as I was, I felt safe simply cause I knew God had sent an Angel to protect me through it. Through the whole college room fiasco, he was there to give me the support that I needed, to catch the tears when it fell and to catch me when I fell.. because I'd have crumpled under the whole emotional roller coaster. He has filled my life with so much laughter, so many smiles, he has been so generous with his friendship, kinship and love that I can't be more thankful and grateful.

If I ever need to define the phrase, "unconditional love", he'd be part of my definition.

Yes, this is my dido and as I read this new book, The Wednesday Letters by Jason F. Wright, I chance upon a poem that is so apt and I'm going to dedicate this poem to him..

The Fifth Season

With each spring comes new life,

energy and green growth.

In summer comes the sun, warm, kind,

and endearing.

Fall brings its colour in careful,

gentle change.

Winter brews into faithful strength,

beauty in pure white.

And then comes you.

You are all that Nature offers,

a blessing, a gift from Father.

You are the fifth season.

Because that's what he is, that's what you are dido.. A blessing and a gift from Father.

God is Good!

Time seems to be moving faster than I can catch it. I've been in Perth for about 6 weeks and it's been a ride, a good awesome one, of course. I've met new people, made new friends, stepped out of my comfort zone, ran right back in. Challenged myself, pushed myself, questioned myself. I've cried, I've laughed, cried even more and laughed even harder. But all in all, I've been awesome. Or rather, God has been AMAZINGLY AWESOME! I can't say this more.

How's uni? To be honest, the campus isn't as High-tech as NUS's, neither is it bigger, in fact, it's really tiny, probably the size of two of our faculties put together, but then again, it's not that bad. =) I am totally enjoying my classes to bits, I Love LOVE LOVE LOVE dentistry to Bits! I know I totally am in this for the right reasons! =) and even when I'm studying the molecular biology stuff now, I am enjoying it, the mentality is very different from how it was in NUS. I reckon it is cause I know I'm doing this for a greater purpose and purely out of love!

I've submitted my drawings and plasticine tooth for marking, I don't really know how I'll perform for my first assignment, I'm actually quite excited to know how I did and for the other stuff that is coming up!

Will blog more when I actually have time to! =) But here are pictures of my master pieces, enjoy!

Here's my plasticine tooth model, the one on the right is the plaster tooth that we were supposed to copy, so the one on the left is moulded by.. Yours truly!

And here's probably the nicest thing I've ever, EVER drawn in my life. the Right Mandibular Molar and its five aspects. =) Hope I do well enough!

My first class!

It's been a long time since I actually blogged! I didn't really have the time to sit down and type something. Well, OZ has been great, but more importantly, God has been even better! He has given and provided for me so abundantly that it is beyond imagination, the kind of grace I'm receiving. It is indeed overwhelming!

Well.. I had my first dentistry class yesterday and my first op-tech today. It's awesome! I feel so empowered and recharged just studying it and to be honest, I feel really blessed being able to sit with the dental class. This is why I'm here and what I'm here for, I'm even more sure than ever that this is exactly what I wanna do and would love doing for the rest of my life. Honestly, I've never been so excited about class and just familiarising myself with the tools and the drills just made me SOOOOOO HAPPY! You cannot imagine, I was beaming like a kid! Serious.

Above all that, I know I'm here with the love and support of all my family and friends, I feel so privileged. I don't know what I'd do without them. Time to study now!

Giving things that matter priority

Feeling a bit emo of late, probably cause the "I'm leaving soon" feeling is really kicking in! But I've been very drawn to a particular piece of literature from Mitch Albom's Have a Little Faith. I felt my heartstrings tug when I read it.

Here is what it read.. pg93, Have a Little Faith - Mitch Albom

From a Sermon by the Reb, 1975

"A man seeks employment on a farm. He hands his letter of recommendation to his new employer. It reads simply, 'He sleeps in a storm.'

"The owner is desperate for help, so he hires the man

"Several weeks pass, and suddenly, in middle of the night, a powerful storm rips through the valley.

"Awakened by the swirling rain and howling wind, the owner leaps out of bed. He calls for his new hired hand, but the man is sleeping soundly.

"So he dashes off to the barn. He sees, to his amazement, that the animals are secure with plenty of feed.

"He runs out to the field. He sees the bales of wheat have been bound and are wrapped in tarpaulins.

"He races to the silo. The doors are latched, and the grain is dry.

"And then he understands. 'He sleeps in a storm.'

"My friends, if we tend to the things that are important in life, if we are right with those we love and behave in line with our faith, our lives will not be cursed with the aching throb of unfulfilled business. Our worlds will always be sincere, our embraces will be tight. We will never wallow in the agony of 'I could have, I should have.' We can sleep in a storm.

"And when it's time, our good-byes will be complete."

This isn't just simply about living your life to the fullest, it is about giving things that matter in life priority, it is about seeing the bigger picture in life and letting the small things that bug you go. It is about consistency, about discipline and about hard work, reaping what you sow. I think this message can be applied to many aspects of a person's life, especially at this point in my life, where I'm going to pursue something I desire so dearly and feel so passionate for.

This serves as a reminder to me, to keep my focus and to understand that no matter how emo or how "I don't want to go" I feel, I have to. Simply because God has called me for my duties and I have to give Him my very best because He deserves nothing less than that in His service. I feel a lot more at ease now that I've got my focus right. I will not focus on the emotional emptiness that I may feel when I'm there, but the overwhelming grace that I AM there. I will not see it as if I'm leaving, but I'm returning in a few months time.

With this new perspective on things, giving things that matter priority so that life will be without regrets, I am sure I'd be able to conquer any mountain that is before me. No matter how long the journey, I will carry on and persevere because I know, HE overcomes!

Beauty and the Geek

Don't judge a book by its cover. Easy to say but often hard to do.

Every single day, consciously or subconsciously, we judge. We judge people we meet, strangers along the streets and even those seated around us. We judge the way they speak, what they wear and the depth of their conversations. We judge their sincerity of speech, by listening to their tone and pitches and we judge their hypocrisy, or not, by their actions. I am guilty as charged for judging. As much as I make it a conscious effort not to, I still, in some way, sum a person up.

This is probably one of the reasons why I'm so particular about first impressions, because you don't get a second chance at that. People will remember the first time they met you and the impression you gave them, no matter how brief the acquaintance, they WILL remember.

But my question is, what's the benchmark for all the judging? Do we categorize the people we meet according to the social categories of "Geek", "Nerd", "Hot Chick", "Bimbo" and what ever else there is? Here's my take on this.. Yes. I do categorize people by the first impressions they give me but trust me, they're not based on physical benchmarks. I don't particularly fancy judging people by appearances basically cause I don't have a baseline for beauty and it's true! (my friends can testify! They have since discounted my views for hot hunks).

So you may ask me, how then do I "judge" or categorise people? Well.. Basically, I trust my gut instincts. Whether it is telling me to flee from the person or whether it tells me to get to know the person better. For now, my instincts have yet to fail me. =) I'm glad.

Above all that, I believe we shouldn't judge a person just based on looks. What's making me blog about this? Well.. I caught re-runs of Beauty and the Geek and I felt so bad for one of the contestants. The "Geeks" had a make over and were put up for auction. So there was this one particular guy, well.. let's just say he's on the heavier side, but he is a fantastically funny shy guy, with the nicest and most adorable personality and.. no surprises, he got the lowest bid!

So here's the point of this blog. Do we judge people just at face value. How thin/slim/skinny, pretty/beautiful/hot, hunky/muscular/fit, handsome/charming/good looking and well.. it goes on. Am I guilty of this? In all honesty, I think at times, I do, but that said, I do make it a conscious effort to see beyond physical appearances and attractiveness. I believe everyone was made to be beautiful and special, especially if we see it through God's eyes. If God could love us for our many imperfections, why can't we try to love others too?! Right?

Oh well.. Beauty and the Geek served as a good reminder, to see beyond the looks and stereotypes and to appreciate the person beneath all that skin deep beauty.