How?

How am I going to do this?
I do not know. I seriously have no idea.

I don't know if I have enough strength in me to just carry on facing disappointment after disappointment. To be honest, I'm more of afraid than anything else. I may jokingly laugh it off, but how much it hurts, no one knows. The want just burns till it hurts and I finally understand what they mean by loving something until it hurts.

I won't run away and not face it. I know I will regret for the rest of my life if I didn't give it my best shot. I'm just praying for strength and courage to face whatever that may come. If you can.. Pray for me.