2010 is coming to an end, to be honest, it probably is one of THE most fruitful years in my life. If I were to look at how I am now as compared to me pre-australia and pre-dentistry, I think the Jocelyn that left wasn't the Jocelyn that came back.
I have never, NEVER once in my past 23 years ever studied as hard as I have this year, or rather, I never knew what it meant to study until now. Perhaps it's the passion or perhaps it's just God preparing me all my life just for today. He probably knew that if I were to be an overachiever at a young age, I'd probably burn out now and not have that desire to study, but because right now, in my opinion, I HAVE NEVER studied EVER in my life, I'm actually trying to make up for the lost time. Ironic isn't it?
I wish I had the same fire same desire for my books in NUS as I have in UWA, but at the same time, I'm thankful I didn't make the rat-race in uni my priority cause I won't be enjoying and loving what I'm doing now as much. Well.. That said, I got my results today.. (imagine big sigh and a look of disappointment) I didn't do as well. A high distinction, two distinctions, a credit and a pass.. I know I can do better than this. I would typically be ecstatic if I had this in NUS, but this really does not satisfy me at all.
Apart from that, I've got a lot of self-reflection to do and a lot more to post about my thoughts, just that blogging at 5.30 in the morning isn't the best time, given the fact that I've not even had a wink. Off I go now, more rants to come.
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