Just ranting!

Sometimes I just can't seem to understand why some people are just so SO self centered?!? I understand, I do, that sometimes it can get quite noisy along the corridors when girls gather to catch up and chit chat, but that's part of the college experience, what more, it's a girl's college, there's bound to be talking!

I won't mind the polite, "hey guys, i'm heading to bed, mind if you keep it down", or the "hey.. it's a tad too loud girls". That I totally understand, cause we can be a bit too rowdy! But to tell us to keep completely quiet and silent and not to talk at all?! Honestly! Or rather, not to talk along corridors because it isn't a common area.

There are two things that is wrong with that, 1. if the corridor isn't a common area, then where is?! It doesn't belong to anyone in particular or is a part of any one's room.. so that, by definition, is common area. and 2. If everyone on the same floor is alright with the noise and YOU are the only one that DOESN'T socialise, then the problem, obviously, lies with YOU!

Honestly, why can't some people just see that.. or self reflect, or ask why they aren't part of the conversation, why people shun them? This is after all college, we come from different cultures and countries, this is the time to know more and to network and to just forge bonds.

Can't they just understand that?

The knock on my door

I never knew how fast God works until today. It was just the day before that I prayed, and yesterday, just yesterday, He answered.

He started by knocking on a door, one that I was, honestly, quite reluctant to open. Not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't want to lose the feeling and the dependence, but He said to me, "you have to let Me come in and occupy this space, you don't need anything else in here but Me"! The moment I gave up, the moment I stopped struggling against His voice, I felt at peace and at ease. I felt that surge of courage to move on and to let my lil burden go.

It may sound cliche, but I think I found the spring in my step! =) God is Good!

The Beautiful Side of Love

The beautiful side of love. This was a phrase that stuck with me when I flipped through the first few chapters of When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric & Leslie Ludy, I believe it's a book that's going to make my tears roll, simply cause it already did. Somehow, I feel the writers, maybe cause I've been in similar situations and circumstances or maybe cause that's how I'm feeling. But I feel that this is the season.. The season where I give God the pen of my life and let HIM write, not only my life, but my love story and I know, it'd be more than beautiful, more than amazing.

There are times, I don't deny, that I ask God why, why it's taking me so long to find the right one, why those around me just don't seem right. Was it that hard?

But this morning, as I sat down and read the book, it just clicked.. It's taking so long for me to find the "right" one cause I have been looking for what I think was right and not what God thinks is right. That's why no one seems to fit. So right now, I give up searching for the "right" one, and let Him put His right choice in my life. He has everything planned out for me and I'm sure He'd find someone for me.

I'm waiting for His side of love to reveal, it has never been the right season before this, I wasn't ready, not because I wasn't emotionally available, but cause my "right" wasn't HIS right. Now that I know, I'm keeping my heart for that one person God has prepared for me and as much as people think that when you put God in the equation of a relationship, it gets boring, I'd beg to differ. God puts the Love in the relationship, He puts the right hue and tone to it, He'd paint a better picture and logically speaking, HE is the creator of LOVE and if there's someone who know the handbook of love best, it's gotta be HIM!

Right now, I know my heart is at peace and ready for Him to put the Right one in my life, cause the Beautiful side of love.. Is seen through His eyes.

A Special Boy

I just got home on friday, I'm not being figurative here, I really mean HOME! =) I was beaming like a kid when I got off the plane, saw my dad, soaked in the humidity, breathed in the Singapore air, *choked*, fell in love with my room, cried with my mom, hugged my lil boy and love my room even more. Yes. For a moment, I wasn't used to so much space! But that aside.. I want to dedicate this post to a special someone in my life, (no dears.. don't think too much, it's not what you think). But it is, however, about a special boy, someone who means a lot to me, someone I believe God has blessed me with. I know I rarely blog about my friends or people in general, but I do want to share him, as much as I can, with you, because he is such an Angel.



It hasn't been long, I know, barely even ten weeks, not even two months that I know him, but I have made this boy a part of my life, I have given him a special place in my heart. If you need to make a comparison, he's like Brendon, someone I love to bits, only difference is, Brendon's my older brother and him, my little one. And I'm just Blessed to have him in my life.



There's a quote that goes along the lines of "When God made you, He had Angels in mind" and I believe it is so for him. His name is Matthew, my lil brother, my dido.



Here's the hard part.. where or how do I even begin telling you about him?



Well.. Questions would be a good start..

Have you ever met someone for the first time, and instantly knew, that this guy or girl was a keeper, was someone whom you can keep close to your heart?


Have you ever met someone for the first time and knew right there and then, that this was a rare, gentle and shy soul?

Have you ever met someone who could see right through you and read your thoughts without you saying a thing?


Have you met someone who would so generously let you into his life and let you be a part of it?

Have you met someone who puts your safety as a priority and worries about you like family would?


Have you met someone who you know you can trust so implicitly and be so comfortable with that all the world's problems just seem to dissolve away?

Have you met someone who'd love you just the way you are and not asking for anything in return?

Have you met a guy whose soul and spirit is so sincere, so pure and so true that you know God is telling you to take care of him and guide him?

Have you met someone just for a short period of time and know that He is an angel that God has sent into your life?

I have.

That's him, that's Matt.

He's someone I know I can turn to, no matter what the circumstance, someone I know who will be there to walk with me, come what may. He was there with me through the hail storm, as afraid and "freaked" out as I was, I felt safe simply cause I knew God had sent an Angel to protect me through it. Through the whole college room fiasco, he was there to give me the support that I needed, to catch the tears when it fell and to catch me when I fell.. because I'd have crumpled under the whole emotional roller coaster. He has filled my life with so much laughter, so many smiles, he has been so generous with his friendship, kinship and love that I can't be more thankful and grateful.

If I ever need to define the phrase, "unconditional love", he'd be part of my definition.

Yes, this is my dido and as I read this new book, The Wednesday Letters by Jason F. Wright, I chance upon a poem that is so apt and I'm going to dedicate this poem to him..

The Fifth Season

With each spring comes new life,

energy and green growth.

In summer comes the sun, warm, kind,

and endearing.

Fall brings its colour in careful,

gentle change.

Winter brews into faithful strength,

beauty in pure white.

And then comes you.

You are all that Nature offers,

a blessing, a gift from Father.

You are the fifth season.

Because that's what he is, that's what you are dido.. A blessing and a gift from Father.