2010 for me

Awesome! 2010!

To think my first days of this new year were spent in a foreign land, sadly- yet aptly- since I'm going to spend the bulk of my days in a foreign land I have to call my second home. Yes. I am excited and I can't wait for class to start. I am yearning to learn everything I have to to be an outstanding dentist, to take in every bit of knowledge from people who are willing to impart. I can't wait to live my life differently, I can't wait for my dreams to come true.

Taiwan was a good ten day break for me, for me to sort my thoughts. I know my focus and I hear the calling within my heart, stronger than ever. There were a couple of things that I took home from Taiwan, first, the culture shock, second, how awesome our government has been and still is, third, the reality that in a month, I'd be doing what I've always wanted to do and lastly, how much I yearned the company of a companion.

Yes.. It's not the premature biological clock that was ticking, it is the li'l thing that beats inside of me that's craving for love. I miss having company, having a person I can call to share my deepest thoughts. I miss having someone hold my hands and rub them when I'm feeling cold, lying in his arms and feel completely safe. I miss having someone to think of and yearn for, I miss the attention and the care, I miss having him complete my sentences and read my thoughts before I can say them. Damn it. That's what Taiwan has done to me.

That aside, I just caught Invictus. I LOVED the show, I loved the message behind it, I loved the Mandela quotes and most of all, I love the way it made me feel. Everything is possible, with God. To want more than excellence, to strive for more than your best. I have been thinking of my 2010 resolutions, and I think I just found it. To give more than my best and to not just meet expectations, but exceed them, in every aspect of my life.

This movie meant a lot to me and somehow, somethings in me are settled. Things that bugged me now seem so clear. That's it. Enough is enough. I have my life to lead and better things to do. This is a new start, a new beginning for me, this is my future and my dreams that I am going to fight my darnest for. This is it, all or nothing. With God's strength, I'm going to give it my best. In faith I claim!