Foolish was I, to have thought that nothing will fill my void again.
I have my answer now.. Love was, is and will be.
Where there is love, there is forgiveness,
there is love in times of need and when life is cold there is a promise.
Love will find a way.
I've learnt a lesson, albeit paying a hefty price.. Never, never should I fill the void of the love of a dream with a human substitute. I paid my price, a broken heart and a broken soul. I gave all the love I had for my dream to that one person, simply cause my heart couldn't contain that disappointment of not being able to chase my dreams, my soul couldn't handle the sadness.. then he came by.. My perfect substitute.
I never did think of it this way in the past, only recently, did I realise that all that heartache and pain didn't come from a broken relationship, because early in it, I knew it wouldn't work out. I held on despite the call of my heart, simply cause that was the only thing that I could be in control of. Foolish was I.. when control was exactly the hardest thing to do.
Now I have my answer.. Love. Not humanly love, but God's Love. His Love is my promise and I give Him all control. My heart has never felt so whole, so overwhelmed. Only His love can fill that God Like void in my heart. I thank God for His love and for giving me a passion in life, one that burns so brightly. I will wait for His plans to be unveiled because I know they are the best for me.
I've learnt to make prudent investments, not in the insecurities and volatility of the human spirit, but in the promises of God's everlasting Love. It's a speculation when we invest all our love on the weak and feeble human heart, but it is an investment, one that reaps abundance, when we keep it in God's hands.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
Weekend Away!
I am finally Home!!!
After a weekend of fabulous food and company! Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, I enjoyed myself tremendously but when you have good rich food for so many days in a row.. MAN.. It's the guilt that totally ruins the enjoyment. Anyway, I enjoyed the company of my family, my brother and my dearest cousin. I mean.. there is nothing more enjoyable than having family time, spending time talking about old days and just enjoying each other's presence.
Now, The Ritz.. What I love about it?
The service.. I'd give it an 8 out of 10. Housekeeping was prompt at times but I think the staff can be more friendly, like always, some can get quite stuck up.
The room was decent, nicely spaced and the toilet!!!! FANTASTIC.. I love toilets with a good view, especially a sea view. However, the Ritz can do with some upgrading! It can feel that tad primitive at times. If you ask me, I think the ambiance at Fullerton is so SO much better not to mention the rooms. WOW. The rooms. No doubt, you don't get as nice a view BUT.. it's about the total experience right?
BUT BUT BUT.. Like they say, the Ritz will always be the Ritz. I should try staying in St Regis one day. =)
To top the whole experience, Church was fantastic!! (as always.=))The message was something that was close to my heart, about Jesus the Good Shepherd (John 10;7) about God's promises for an abundant and fulfilling life, but we as children of God, should constantly seek the word of God and the understanding of it. That we should be mentored and guided, that we should not only seek fellowship, but also discipline.
The Lord has blessed my life overwhelmingly and I know this is the time.. The time for me to actively seek His word.
God is Good!
After a weekend of fabulous food and company! Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, I enjoyed myself tremendously but when you have good rich food for so many days in a row.. MAN.. It's the guilt that totally ruins the enjoyment. Anyway, I enjoyed the company of my family, my brother and my dearest cousin. I mean.. there is nothing more enjoyable than having family time, spending time talking about old days and just enjoying each other's presence.
Now, The Ritz.. What I love about it?
The service.. I'd give it an 8 out of 10. Housekeeping was prompt at times but I think the staff can be more friendly, like always, some can get quite stuck up.
The room was decent, nicely spaced and the toilet!!!! FANTASTIC.. I love toilets with a good view, especially a sea view. However, the Ritz can do with some upgrading! It can feel that tad primitive at times. If you ask me, I think the ambiance at Fullerton is so SO much better not to mention the rooms. WOW. The rooms. No doubt, you don't get as nice a view BUT.. it's about the total experience right?
BUT BUT BUT.. Like they say, the Ritz will always be the Ritz. I should try staying in St Regis one day. =)
To top the whole experience, Church was fantastic!! (as always.=))The message was something that was close to my heart, about Jesus the Good Shepherd (John 10;7) about God's promises for an abundant and fulfilling life, but we as children of God, should constantly seek the word of God and the understanding of it. That we should be mentored and guided, that we should not only seek fellowship, but also discipline.
The Lord has blessed my life overwhelmingly and I know this is the time.. The time for me to actively seek His word.
God is Good!
I Love Singapore!
NDP . The Ritz . Family . Great Company
What more can anyone ask for?
This year's NDP is somehow more special to me.. maybe it's the thought that I may be going overseas for the next few years that makes it that bit more interesting, or maybe cause I'm watching it at the Ritz, OR simply cause it was brilliantly organised. This year's parade is something that is easier to relate to, one that is more current and even though the story line was something that I could guess, the way the Singapore story was told was so much more interesting and entertaining.
I loved the fireworks, as always and the men in uniform was a bonus.. =) there were so many stationed in the Ritz and I have to say, the policemen, were quite cute.
On the whole, I loved this year's NDP! I'm so proud to be Singaporean!
What more can anyone ask for?
This year's NDP is somehow more special to me.. maybe it's the thought that I may be going overseas for the next few years that makes it that bit more interesting, or maybe cause I'm watching it at the Ritz, OR simply cause it was brilliantly organised. This year's parade is something that is easier to relate to, one that is more current and even though the story line was something that I could guess, the way the Singapore story was told was so much more interesting and entertaining.
I loved the fireworks, as always and the men in uniform was a bonus.. =) there were so many stationed in the Ritz and I have to say, the policemen, were quite cute.
On the whole, I loved this year's NDP! I'm so proud to be Singaporean!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
My Lord, my everything
There have been moments in my life that I questioned God, times when I was disappointed, times when God didn't give me what I want and times when things felt so right, yet He had to take them away. I suppose it's because of my lack of faith that I start to question Him, but the past few months have been a very different journey for me.
God started to reveal His plans for me, He spoke to me in a way that was so direct, so clear, His message was undeniable. I started to see why He denied me of certain things in the past, not because He didn't love me, but simply because He loves me too much. He was willing to take my questions and my uncertainty and with His grace and patience let me see His works. Indeed, God is great.
He denied me things in the past, so that I will treasure them in future. He closed a chapter of my love story, one that I thought it was premature, but now I know, He knew best. He stopped my misery before it came to me, He stood by me and sent angels to me to carry me through. He didn't open doors for dentistry for me, because He wanted me to find my path and my journey, so that I will be a dentist that will honour Him, He patiently waited for me to grow in His word, He took me by the hand and when the time was right, unveiled His plan for me.
I cannot express just how joyful and peaceful I feel. I know I will succeed in Him, I know I will be a living testimony of His Grace and at the end of the day, I know, He is my Lord, my everything.
God started to reveal His plans for me, He spoke to me in a way that was so direct, so clear, His message was undeniable. I started to see why He denied me of certain things in the past, not because He didn't love me, but simply because He loves me too much. He was willing to take my questions and my uncertainty and with His grace and patience let me see His works. Indeed, God is great.
He denied me things in the past, so that I will treasure them in future. He closed a chapter of my love story, one that I thought it was premature, but now I know, He knew best. He stopped my misery before it came to me, He stood by me and sent angels to me to carry me through. He didn't open doors for dentistry for me, because He wanted me to find my path and my journey, so that I will be a dentist that will honour Him, He patiently waited for me to grow in His word, He took me by the hand and when the time was right, unveiled His plan for me.
I cannot express just how joyful and peaceful I feel. I know I will succeed in Him, I know I will be a living testimony of His Grace and at the end of the day, I know, He is my Lord, my everything.
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