Sunday, January 18, 2009

One Last Chance

.2009.

What does it actually hold?

A bleak economy?
More disasters?

OR

A time for change?
and a time to hope.

I'm placing my bets on the latter.

After all, hope is all that I am hanging on to. I'm given one last chance, one last chance for change. I want it, with every breath I take I yearn for it and with every last ounce of my strength I will fight for it.

It's my last chance, and even if I have to lose my life to fight for this, I will.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

What's becoming of kids today!

Life is so so amusing. Was doing some Christmas shopping today and I was so taken aback by how absurdly rude kids can be.. seriously.. I don't mean teenagers.. I mean KIDS. Those brats that i saw were probably not anywhere near 10!

We were in the queue, and might I add, a long one, while those two brats were behind me. I admit.. I did buy quite a number of things and was asking for home delivery (you don't expect me to lug my purchases while i do my shopping, do you?) so it probably took that tad longer than usual. But honestly, Not once have I complained when I'm in a queue. My Logic's this.. DON'T Queue. If you think it's too long, skip it, shop awhile more before heading for the checkout.

Anyway.. Back to it, those two brats were complaining, in their all so broken english, or should I say, Singlish, in that irritating shrieky childish voice (yes.. I'm pissed) "why the queue so long ar?", "how come must wait so long ar?".. or whatever they were trying to express.

The funny thing is.. they were a pair of siblings and the girl.. trying to do that stare and roll eyes thing kept trying to look at me.. and she being at a 10 year old height, looked absolutely ridiculous from where i was standing. She picked the wrong person to stare at. If you wanna roll your eyes, please do it in the person's face and not the abdomen, it's just insanely stupid. So they went on venting until it got on my nerves, I stared down at her, and said.. "Kids should just stop complaining" and did the perfect eye roll. I didn't mean to be mean, but can you blame me?

Anyway.. Point is.. If you have a kid, or in future, will have a kid.. please teach them some manners, along with all the potty training and speech. It's annoying to have a kid complaining, speaking with bad english makes it worse. and seriously.. What's becoming of kids today!

Friday, December 5, 2008

December

December.. I always have mixed feelings about December. It's the last month of the year yet in it holds a very important day that I love to celebrate. Not just for the gifts, shopping and whole festive mood, but for the very reason that, Christmas is a celebration of the birth of Christ. It's a time of renewal and reflection.. and it is this very reflection that I have quite a love hate relationship with.

At the end of the 12 months of the year, you reflect and think about all that you've done and accomplished all year, all the people you've reached out to and the others that you help. You think of all the snide remarks that you have made and the demeaning stares that you give. Yet you think of the number of people whom you have touched and gave a smile to. Where does the scale tip towards to?

Can surviving yet another grueling year of uni be considered an accomplishment? Or maybe having to do and juggle so many things all at once? Are these accomplishments?

When you challenge yourself at something and overcome it, momentarily, you're satisfied and happy, but when you look back at the whole 365 days, that one little moment would seem so insignificant. Can you have fruitful moments but a not so fruitful year?

I wonder how many people feel the way I feel about December.. the Optimism of a new year ahead and the pessimism that one hasn't accomplished much for the past year.
This is a feeling, that is so hard to fathom.



Tuesday, November 4, 2008

SICKO

Micheal Moore. SICKO. Great Show. Period.



Yes. I can't find anything close to describing Sicko. No doubt that the show is in some sense biased with Micheal Moore's voice and displeasure raised throughout the show. BUT even when i watched it with that bit of skepticism, it got to me. Especially when he brought the "heros" of 9/11 to CUBA.. LISTEN.. CUBA (a place where US thought of as enemy), for free professional medical treatment, something that they were deprived of back at home. Either that, or the price for medicine in the US was just exorbitant. Why "heros" you may ask, cause they were volunteers that helped out at the 9/11 site and were not under the governments payroll.. and that's why.. THEY are NOT the governments' responsibility and cannot benefit from the fund that was set aside for the REAL HEROS. and may i add, The PAYED REAL HEROS that the government is RESPONSIBLE for.



You seriously got to catch it. I know many would be turned off by watching a documentary, but one can definitely learn a lot from it. Well.. I had this moment in the show where it just struck me.. what the hell am i here for? Life is so fragile, yet the society can be so unfeeling, turning its back on those who have fallen through the cracks or those unfortunate enough to be plagued with diseases. Have we adopted the mentality of, "it's not my problem?", "it's his folly for not saving enough for old age." or "I can't share because I don't have enough".

Watching how other countries accepted those ill Americans with open arms and gave them free treatment just hit me.. have we rejected someone who needed help? Did we say no to helping someone just because they are of a different race, a different nationality or because he speaks funny?

It is hard, extremely hard to be selfless and I don't think i can claim that i can achieve that, but can we be not selfish? Cause in my opinion, the opposite of being selfish isn't being selfless, but it's sharing, giving without expecting. I'm still pondering over the question.. What's our main purpose of being alive? To waste resources and destroy the earth further? Or to be a blessing.. in the any way, even as small as it may be, it may mean the world to someone else.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Follow Your Heart

"Follow your heart".. Is that sound advise? What if the heart wants to take a path that seems too hard to reach or one that doesn't seem to exist, no matter how long and how hard you try to find it? What if the heart is rash and wants to take a plunge into the deepest waters, can we afford that fall? When the heart yearns for the sky, when you miss it, can you really catch onto a star, or will you fall into a void?
So when someone tells you to "follow you heart", can you actually JUST DO IT? or do you have to process your heart with your head? Put thought into that feeling, put practicality into dreams and find ground when you're afloat?
I found my answers. "Follow your heart" only when your Heart is placed in the hands of the Lord. Only then, do you follow your heart, because He speaks to it.



Follow your heart
Life will take me,
where ever You want me to go.
My heart will find its place,
and You, will plan my steps and my pace.
You are in control,
of my life and eternity.
You decide where i should go,
what i should do.
Only in Your plans, I trust,
and in Your will that, my heart, I will follow.
In Your palms I place my heart,
Cause it's only You that I trust.
With you.. I can Follow my heart.
-Jocelyn

Friday, October 10, 2008

That's When I Love you

This week has been CRAZY! There's just so SO much to do!
I'm listening to this song.. That's when I love you by Aslyn.. and it's so sweet! =) I told my bro to use it, somehow, for his wedding, if not, I'd use it for mine in future! (when i actually get to that stage!)
Anyway, here's the lyrics..

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

Sunday, October 5, 2008

My F1 Fever!

I LOVED LOVED LOVED F1!!! The race was just exhilarating! I caught the qualifying at DXO, there was a Castello party at the patio. Just to digress.. The Italian imported beers, wines and liqueur were FantaBUlous! So.. back to F1.. Some friends were really skeptical about F1, cause they didn't see the point of watching cars drive past you 61 times, but honestly, when you're right there in the middle of all the action.. you can't help but be drawn in by the sweet sweet sound of the engine.




Castello Party invite





The Ferrari driving by

Here's a video i took at the race as well.. not exceptionally clear.. but.. I LOVE!
They had laser light displays on the top of the Ritz.. Something along the lines of First F1 night race. Thank you for being part of history.. I don't know if you can see if from this video.. either way.. enjoy!




On top of that, the fabulous folks at Da Paolo's came up with the Ferrari cupcakes!!! I couldn't help but buy them! They're adorable eh!!! LOVE IT!