Twenty Ten and Taiwan!

It's just a few days away to TwentyTen and I am both ecstatic and apprehensive. I am super excited that school is starting, this may sound a bit geek-ish, but I can't wait to get back to studying again and learning things that I love, but at the same time, I'm apprehensive cause when 2010 Jan comes, it would mean that I am exactly 4 weeks away from leaving. It is because I know, when the 5th Feb comes, I would be the one crying so badly.

I don't exactly know how things will be in Perth, whether I can find friends as awesome as the ones here. I know God will provide in all things and I'm going to try to carry this Godly confidence with me there. I need to, because I know, only with HIM, can I achieve.

Anyway, I'm in Taiwan now, I seriously love the weather! I love it cold! I somehow think that I was born in the wrong climate, given how much I love to layer my clothing. =) But I totally love how it is here, Mea's parents are awesome and super hospitable! I don't exactly like the traffic here though, kind of unruly! Oh well, I'll be spending New Year's at Hua Lian, don't know if there is any kind of celebration there or sorts.

As of now, shopping doesn't feel as shiok as Korea, I don't know if it's cause of the company, I can't exactly shop with reckless abandon with my second brother around! He can be quite a pain in the.. *ahem* when it comes to shopping. Food is actually quite interesting! I do appreciate Taiwanese food, but it can get quite "gelat", too much oil, quite a bit of cholesterol in everything and a serious lack of veg! But I love LOVE the fruits here! I'm looking forward to the next couple of days.. Even though, I must add, I miss doing something LOADS! I need to run!!! I NEEEDDDD to RUNNNNN!!!!! I think running has become more of an obsessive lifestyle rather than a habit. Oh Well.. I'll make up for this lack of when I'm back!

Silly random thoughts

Seven more weeks. I don't wish to count down, but I'm subconsciously counting weeks. My heart's a mess and I suppose it's only normal, I just feel slightly torn. I am truly excited to go, to live my dreams, study what I've always wanted to and strive as hard as I can to be an outstanding dentist in God's name. Yet there is a part of me that can't bear to go simply cause I'll miss the people in my life to bits.



For one, I know I will miss my girlfriends and my whole cell. I will miss the convenience of picking up the phone and dialing my girlfriend's number, talk to her about the little agonising things that life has put in my way, think about life together and updating her about my life. I will miss the late night chats with a dear friend and the smiles he puts on my face. I will miss the afternoons where I hang out in Orchard, waiting for my twinnie for lunch and keeping her company at the Shu counter. I will miss waking up on a Sunday morning and driving down to church, having lunch with the cell and bonding with them. Needless to say, I will definitely be homesick. I will miss my family, the warmth of kinship and the joy of family time, I will miss my dearest boy too!!



I've been listening to Taylor Swift's album, Fearless, there are two songs that I love, You Belong to Me and Teardrops on my guitar. If you take a closer look at the lyrics, you'll realise that at some point in time, that has happened to you, in one way or another. Especially You Belong to Me, it's about a girl who is a guy's best friend and how she is perfect for him, yet the only thing is that he is taken by a seemingly hot girl, but one who is totally wrong for him.



Here's part of the lyrics:



"She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time



If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me



Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me



Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favourite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me



Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me"



Life does seem to play a practical joke on us, don't you think? Sometimes you're just "the good friend" even though you think the person will be much happier when they are with you. Then you might find the right guy that seems perfect for you and yet it's the wrong time. Or the guy you thought you could spend the rest of your life with turns out to be the wrong guy. What happens then? I don't have an answer, as much as I wish for one.



When I find that guy who makes me laugh, where just the very thought of his voice and him puts a smile to my face, the guy who reads me like a book, looks beyond me and understands the very fundamentals that make me me. I hope when I find him, in God's time, he'll be ready for me just as I would be for him, all in Perfect timing.

Random thoughts on a sleepless night

I don't know why I'm not sleeping yet, but there are just so many thoughts running through my mind that I can barely sleep, and well.. I kinda pulled my lower back muscle, so having that bit of pain while I lie flat. Anyway, that's of no importance at all, I just probably have a bit more time to think about things and life in general. The purpose of life to be exact.

Do we actually know what our purpose on earth is? What we are supposed to do with our life? As Christians, we call this purpose our calling. I thank God that He has in some way given me a clearer picture of what He wants me to do, even though these things are still quite premature but I'm glad He has given me a focus in life and a drive and motivation that will carry me through the next five years. But what happens to those who never find their calling? Or rather, they never find something that they truly love to do. What then happens to them?

Is life just about working hard and earning your keep, buying a house, starting a family and working even harder? What I know is that Life definitely isn't and shouldn't be a constant pursuit of material wants. Even though I know many girls who work really hard to earn enough money for the next designer handbag or would do anything for money just to enjoy this sense of material satisfaction and luxury.

All that I have in mind is that Life should be a walk with Christ. It is one where your purpose is known and you set your heart and mind to achieve it, not for your personal glory but for the glory of God. Life is about believing that God knows best and giving Him full control. As easy as this may sound, it is something that many Christians, myself included, struggle to constantly do. But I know even through these humanly struggles of life, God is never absent and always present. I commit my life to living a life that is pleasing to Him, one that will glorify Him.